Friday, November 13, 2009

Emocoaster

It's been interesting over the past month or two, adjusting to the changes in my life. I get to follow my nose a bit, since I'm not entirely sure of the best way to move forward, and I've alloted space to figure that out, but there are a lot of high aspirations and hopes behind what I'm doing, and a lot of things that trigger panic that balance out all of the happiness in chasing a dream now and then. On the one hand is working in my pajamas, learning new things (re: scripting), building games based on my own ideas and thoughts for the industry, dreaming of a studio successfully built around fostering and protecting creativity, and generally trying to use whatever powers I might have for good. On the other is watching how tumultuous the industry is in general, noticing how jam-packed and difficult-to-stand-out the indie industry is, spending all day overcoming a seemingly trivial scripting problem that would take a programmer 5 sec. to resolve, and feeling anxious as the nest egg slowly bleeds in the process. Moving also carries both sides of the coin, being both excited about my future in a new place with someone I love, and feeling nostalgic about the past. Ah life. The past few months have been amazing, and I have a hard time believing I'll ever feel differently about them. Good thing I'm posting this, so I can reflect on the sentiment later. ;-)

1 comment:

  1. I'm a programmer, if you'd like some help. ; )

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